>The best I’ve felt in a long time

>I really think this is the best I have felt in a long time.
I am not craving friendship anymore. I think by actively controlling my
thoughts I have reduced my desire for a friend enough that I feel almost actually happy.

I wonder if it is seasonal. Since in the winter there’s not much you can go out and do it may be easier. Once spring comes bringing the desire for outdoor activities I may revert. Once Summer comes and the oppressive hell like heat pisses me off for 5 months I may not be able to control it.
I’m hoping that by that time I will have even better control of my thoughts and I won’t let it get to me. Only time will tell.

I am expanding my study of Buddhism in order to help myself gain control of my mind. I’m currently studying mindfulness meditation in case things get out of hand again.