I have to say that Christmas really does feel more magical on another month when the world is less tacky and commercial. I think I will seriously consider having my Christmas sometime mid-year. I’ll do the tree, presents, cartoons, movies and the whole works. Doesn’t it bother anyone that real Christmas is so screwed up? Let’s fix it.
There’s this guy in my community band who sits next to me. He appears gay in pretty much all gaydar ways. A number of times he has asked me to go get something to eat after practice. I’ve let him know I’m not interested but he keeps trying. I am not gay nor do I want to be. Maybe his motives are completely different than what it appears but sometimes you can just tell. As I’ve said before, I’m pretty much clueless. I automatically assume that if someone interacts with me, it means they want something. That’s just the way it has always been.
Today he asked me via email to pick something up and go to a secluded place like the park. If that doesn’t say GAY I don’t know what does.
Now I don’t want to be mean but I’m just not interested.
It sucks that the only people ever to show interest in me are guys. What the fuck is going on here? Perhaps I look gay? I am rather retro and by todays standards that might appear gay. I just have a hard time giving up all the things that were a part of my life when I grew up.
I’m pretty sure he found my blog in the past but after moving to wordpress I don’t think he’s reading it anymore. At least for now.
I suppose I’ll go ahead to go with him to eat something after practice but I’m not going to a secluded place. I hope he lays it out on what he wants from me because I’m getting tired of it. I guess I’ll just have to be straightforward about it if he does. Sometimes you just have to hurt people’s feelings. We really don’t have anything in common anyway. He’s not the kind of guy that meets my BFF requirements anyway.
I’m planting some bamboo along my back fence to help screen out the lovely view of my neighbor’s nasty house. I went to the nursery yesterday and found a small pot of bamboo costs $75.00. It would cost me $500 to screen out the view.
Fortunately my mom has a large clump of bamboo at her house that was there the whole time I was growing up. It is now shaded by a tree and isn’t doing well. It is behind a wall so it is out of sight and out of mind and never gets watered. She doesn’t want it anymore so I’m digging up the clumps and planting them at my house.
With full sun and proper care I will soon be able to look out my window and have a much better view. As a bonus they will not be able to watch me swimming naked in my pool anymore. I hope it grows fast. I’ll give it lots of water and love so maybe it will.
UPDATE: It is not looking so good. Here’s a tip. Research your bamboo types and make sure you get a spreading variety that stands up straight. My free bamboo bends over and offers less privacy and more face whipping while mowing the grass. I think I may switch to Red Tip Photinia. It’s much cheaper and more dense for better privacy.
If you don’t have a wok, that’s OK. A large frying pan will do. The wok is good because it is so big it prevents splatter from getting all over your stovetop. This is a great generic recipe. Make your own mods by using different sauces, veggies or meats. Use noodles instead of rice. Stir frying the noodles in last.
Shrimp or Chicken
Broccoli cut small
1/4 White onion sliced thin
Carrots sliced thin
1/4 Bell Pepper sliced thin
Mushrooms sliced thin
Snow Peas (whole)
Canola Oil. Any cooking oil will do.
Black vinegar (optional)
Marinate chicken or shrimp in soy sauce and black vinegar.
Put 1/2 cup rice and 3/4 cups water in a small pot.
Cook on high until it boils.
Reduce heat to medium.
Place lid on to allow steam to escape.
When craters form in the rice, put the lid on tight and reduce to low.
Simmer for 15 minutes.
Chop Vegetables while waiting for rice to cook.
Heat wok or pan and add some canola oil.
Cook shrimp on both sides for no more than 3 minutes.
Cook chicken on both sides for no more than 5 minutes.
Put shrimp or chicken aside.
Add more oil and stir fry veggies. Add more delicate things like mushrooms last.
Cook until they look yummy.
Add soy sauce and/or Hoisen sauce. Splash in some black vinegar.
Add shrimp or chicken. Stir fry until meat is hot.
Put rice on the plate then dump the stir fry onto the plate.
Add some garlic hot sauce and enjoy.
This is good eatin’ and easy to cook and clean up after. Maybe even one day you’ll have a guest over to share it with.
It is with deep regret that I do my last load of winter laundry. It is such a shame to be putting away my warm sweatshirts and pants. Hanging up my heavy jacket in the back of the closet. Winter was only about 10 days long. I see the weather up north is still snowy and cold but here it’s 80 degrees and humid in February. Sigh.
Last night I had a number of unpleasant dreams. I recalled them as I woke up through the night but decided, due to their unpleasantness, that I would not try to remember them or blog them. I am interested in the fact that although I considered them to be bad dreams, I don’t think I would categorize them as nightmares. In fact, I don’t recall having any nightmares in quite some time. Even though I’ve sometimes woken up quite disturbed I was never in terror. I wonder if it is due to the fact that either they are not that bad or I am so desensitized to such things that they don’t affect me that way.
Either way, I think I am due for some really good dreams. I also can’t recall having super happy dreams EVER. They are always some kind of problem I have to deal with. I guess it is during the night as it is during the daytime. I would like someone who analyzes dreams to explain that one to me. It could just be as simple as my life sucks and I don’t know any other way.