I’m feeling the need to go on vacation but I have nowhere to go.
I need a vacation away from my house. Lately I’ve just taken time off and sat around at home. It’s better than work but it doesn’t give me the satisfaction. I don’t want to go far because plane travel sucks so much these days. I would be happy to find a resort near a lake. My big problem now is finding time to fit in a few days away. Appointments and time burglars keep filling up my weeks. I want to do it BEFORE school lets out and the masses hit the roads and clog up the fun spots.
I have a scuba diving trip coming up in a few weeks with a friend but I’m not sure I can count that as vacation. It feel like more of a chore. I still want to go but I expect it will be unsatisfying and pointless. I just don’t enjoy being with other people yet at the same time I am lonely. What a mind fuck that is.
My dream vacation is probably a few days at a beach resort with clean white sand and clear blue water. I want to spend the day playing volleyball in my speedos and not feel out of place. No, I will not be happy on a beach without speedos. What’s the point if you are going to wear long pants? It really pisses me off that it is so out of style. I guess I’m going to have to find a gay resort. I don’t want to be gay but I don’t see any alternative.
Well, it’s either that or sit at home and watch TV while wishing for death. That gets old after a while. Isn’t there anyone else out there like me?