Wow. I need to apologize to myself. I appear to have suffered a great breakdown in loneliness. I’ve spent years cultivating the mental discipline to not succumb to loneliness and just a few days of the flu threw it all in the dumpster.
I know there is nobody out there for me and I realize that thinking about it is a waste of valuable life hours. I’m feeling better again now. Only a nagging cough is left. I’ll live. I will now return me to my regularly scheduled program of denial and ignorance.