Anxiety Attack

nxtyttkI think what I experienced yesterday was an Anxiety Attack.

I was seriously worried about my employment situation, my upcoming cruise (which should not be an anxiety point), my lack of self-confidence and watching the news about the ISIS threat.  Those people are insane and they’re coming for us!

It all combined into a whirling cyclone of anxiety.  I took a shower and laid in bed for a few hours in the dark listening to a Zencast podcast.  I like Gil Fronsdal’s lectures.  His voice reminds me of Dr. Katz.  I felt better and got up to watch a new episode of Big Bang Theory.  Amazing how anxiety comes and goes so quickly.

I worry to much.  There’s no doubt about that.  I’m a very serious person and I take life too seriously.  It is so easy to say, “Don’t be so serious.”  It is much harder to actually do it.   Must…Let…It…Go…

 

The snow glows white on the mountain night
Not a footprint to be seen
A kingdom of isolation
And it looks like I’m the king.

The wind is howling
Like this swirling storm inside
Couldn’t keep it in
Heaven knows I’ve tried

Don’t let them in, don’t let them see
Be the good guy you always have to be
Conceal, don’t feel, don’t let them know
Well, now they know

Let it go, let it go
Can’t hold back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door
I don’t care what they’re going to say
Let the storm rage on
The cold never bothered me anyway.

It’s funny how some distance,
makes everything seem small,
and the fears that once controlled me,
can’t get to me at all.

It’s time to see what I can do.
To test the limits and break through.
No right, no wrong, no rules for me!
I’m free!

Let it go, let it go,
I’m one with the wind and sky!
Let it go, let it go,
you’ll never see me cry!
Here I stand and here I’ll stay!
Let the storm rage on!

My power flurries through the air into the ground!
My soul is spiraling in frozen fractals all around!
And one thought crystallizes like an icy blast!
I’m never going back,
the past is in the past.

Let it go, let it go,
And I’ll rise like the break of dawn!
Let it go, let it go,
That perfect guy is gone!
Here I stand in the light of day!
Let the storm rage on,
the cold never bothered me anyway.

 

Yeah.  Right.

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