Re-buying Christmas

xmslgtsWow.  This year I seem to be in the Christmas Spirit so I went upstairs to the closet in the spare bedroom and pulled down my box of Christmas decorations.   It was really small.

A year or so ago I was so lonely and depressed that I was convinced that I had seen my last Christmas threw out 90% of my decorations keeping only the most treasured old tarnished ornaments and some LED lights.

Gone are my strings of C7 and C9 bulbs that were so old and frayed that they were probably fire hazards.  I still used them because they were old and special.  They reminded me of my childhood and my father but I let them go anyway.  I guess it was for the best because they were energy hogs by today’s standards and rather dangerous.

I also had some mesh lights that I used on my front bushes.  I should have kept those too.

I guess I’ll be re-buying Christmas this year.

A few weeks later…
Actually,  I kind of like a basic minimal Christmas.  I think I’ll just stick with what I have left.



gglsSince, for some reason, there is nothing to watch on TV lately, I’ve decided to watch an old favorite animated TV series, Gargoyles.

It was on back in the early 90s and was totally awesome.  I was into it during the late 90s and even attended a Gargoyles Convention in Dallas where my costume won first prize.  I even built a full sized “Titania’s Mirror” which won first in the art show.  Seriously. I was really into it.  I was probably the oldest person there too.

I even had a Gargoyles fan website on Geocities and read Gargoyles Fan Fiction.

I recorded the whole series onto DVD back in the day.  Now I have it converted to MP4 on my media player with the rest of my stuff.  Now that I am watching it again I remember just how great the show was.

One of the coolest things is that many of the voices were done by Star Trek Actors.  Jonathon Frakes, Marina Sirtis, Brent Spiner, Nichelle Nicols, Michael Dorn, Kate Mulgrew, Colm Meany, LeVar Burton.  Other non-trek actors include Ed Asner, Keith David, Salli Richardson-Whitfield, Bill Fagerbakke, John Rhys-Davies, Matt Frewer, Cree Summer, Tim Curry, Robert Culp.  It’s a veritable cornucopia of celebrities.

The story included all sorts of history, time travel, legends, magic and Shakespearean characters.  Timelines twisted around and met each other in delicious ways.  Unfortunately it is not on broadcast TV right now.  I don’t think it was properly appreciated by the masses.  Keep an eye out for it in case it returns on some channel somewhere.  I know you would enjoy it.

You can get the DVDs on Amazon.  Totally worth it.

Season One
Season Two – Vol 1
Season Two – Vol 2

Status Report

It has been a while since I’ve really done a lot of blogging.  A few things here and there.  I have mostly been either using my sabbatical time to work on projects around the house or chilling out.  A few weeks ago I took my second Microsoft certification test so now I can put that on my resume.

Mentally, I am doing rather well.  My “New Universe” thinking seems to be working out pretty good.  I would say that I have been happier now than I have been in over 30 years.

I am still fighting the weirdness of not working and worries about my future but I’ve been controlling it for the most part.  I’ve put in a few applications here and there if it looks interesting.  I went to a interview for a part time position that actually seems like a dream job but I turned it down because I think I want to try full time once more.  I want to be able to try living large and being generous.  Generosity is the subject of an upcoming Life Rule post.

I have done a little sight seeing and visiting with friends and family.  I really do feel happier now.  I don’t pray for death before bedtime every night so that’s a good sign.

I feel much better about going back to work now that I’ve had time off.  I plan to continue to relax in December and get serious about a job in January.

Overall, Life seems pretty good.


Dreamblog – Baseball Dreams

bbdmsI am not a sports guy.  I don’t even like baseball.  That last time I eve came close to playing baseball was when we played softball in elementary school during P.E.

Over the last two nights I’ve been dreaming that I am playing baseball.  To make it even weirder, it was kind of a Trivial Pursuit version of the game where you have to answer questions before you can run to the next base.  Perhaps not a bad idea!

I don’t recall enough about the dreams to actually write them down but I do know for sure that they were baseball dreams and I was always batting.

 Read all my dreams.

Maybe I should go to the batting cages.

Life Rule #3: Love yourself

lvyrslfBefore you can love and be loved, you must love yourself.

I spent so many years looking in the mirror and hating myself.  I told myself out loud, “I hate you!”  That’s not helpful.

Recently, I’ve learned that it is important to love yourself.  If you can’t accept yourself the way you are you will never be satisfied.  There’s little you can do to change your physical appearance.  Accept it.  The best thing you can do is to change yourself from the inside and loving yourself will go a long way.

Life rule #1 – Live
Life rule #2 – Self Confidence
Life rule #3 – Love Yourself
Life rule #4 – Be Generous

Quick moview review – Crazy, Stupid Love

cslI just watched Crazy, Stupid Love. I’m not a big Steve Carell fan but I like him better when he’s not trying to be funny.

Basically, a divorced man meets a swank guy in a bar who teaches him how to dress and to pick up women in bars.  A lot of other boring stuff happens too but that’s the main point that I was concerned with.

Like Cal, I am a guy who wears tennis shoes, has a Supercuts haircut and uses a velcro wallet.  Comfort, affordability and efficiency.  What else is there?

Cal dresses up and picks up a lot of shallow women before eventually getting his wife back.  Who didn’t expect that?

On a personal note, I don’t see myself becoming “that guy”.  I have no need to dress up in a bunch of layers of clothing in 105 degree San Antonio weather.  I only have one suit and it’s from Walmart.   I also can’t imagine being interested in any woman who would have sex on the first date.  Hardly classy.  Not even realistic.  Women don’t want men anymore anyway.

Will I be alone forever?  My sources point to Yes.  But that’s OK.  Maybe one day some girl will like me for who and what I am and we won’t have to go though all the unnecessary crap to pretend we are not ourselves.  Homey don’t play that.