You know… I’ve spent 20 years wallowing in depression and it wasn’t until just now that I realized that I am living a truly blessed life. I was so caught up in loneliness and self-pity that I failed to notice that compared to the majority of people on this planet, I am incredibly blessed.
Yeah, I don’t have a family or satisfying friendships but as far as the American Dream goes; I’ve got it.
During my time of not working, I kind of identified with the jobless, scrambling masses. Of course I wasn’t one of them but still I felt a connection. It gave me time to see life from the other side of where I lived. So many people are living paycheck to paycheck. They are barely eeking out an existence and struggling to meet life’s basic requirements of food, shelter, transportation and health. I have at least three friends who are in that category.
It made me realize just how blessed I am. I’ve never had to struggle for my existence. I can almost say that life has handed me everything I need and more. We were not rich when I was a child. After my father died when I was 9, my mom, brother and myself lived on social security. We didn’t have a lot but we had everything we needed and more.
After I graduated from school I worked and attended college for my associates degree. I continued on towards an engineering degree but got into the emerging computer industry. Jobs were easy to find and paid quite well. I bought a house, a Porsche, a BMW, an RV and whatever else I wanted. Life was easy.
Perhaps not having a wife and family contributed to my easy success and I’m not sure I miss having them. It costs a lot to have a family.
In general, life gives me whatever I need. I don’t have to go out and fight for things. They just come to me.
I don’t intend to be bragging about my easy fortune but I do want to remind myself about it because life really is good for me. I only wish I could get those wasted 20 years back. There’s no doubt that wisdom comes with age. It is unlikely that I could have recognized my good life back then anyway. The important thing is that I go forward and appreciate what I have accomplished. I am blessed and I appreciate it.