I spent over 20 years in a deep depression. I had no idea what to do about it. All I wanted was for somebody to help me. I made things worse for myself by playing up the depression in front of others desperate for them to notice and just perhaps give a shit and help me. Help never came. Friends, family, co-workers. Nobody cared enough to even acknowledge my pain.
I continued to cry out in the only way I could but that only made matters worse for myself. Depression feeds upon itself. Read all the old entries in this blog and see where I was.
It wasn’t until I realized that the only help that was coming to me was the help that I gave myself. I wish I could tell you exactly when and how I changed my life but I can’t remember right now. It’s in this blog somewhere.
The important thing right now is that if you are in the same situation, whether you know it or not, don’t waste your time trying to get sympathy from other people. They will not come to your aid and you will just be destroying yourself further. Take my advice. I know this for a fact.