I’ve been feeling down all day and even called in sick because I couldn’t stand another day at work this week. I mostly sat around and watched TV and movies. I really needed the rest, both physically and mentally. The boss wasn’t happy but neither was I.
After the concert I stopped by the grocery store for a few things. I was hoping the concert would pick me up but it didn’t help much. I was still feeling depressed. I don’t know exactly why. I slowly trudged through the aisles in a partial fog trying to get the things I needed. At one point I slowed down and came to a complete stop in the middle of an aisle. I just stood there staring into nothingness. I could have curled up into a ball on the floor and cried. I could have spent hours standing there like a statue but didn’t want to freak people out so I forced myself back into motion.
I wish I knew exactly what my problem is. I think it is a combination of many things that has, over the years, become a fog. I can no longer pick out anything in particular that I can come up with a solution to. I think it is a combination of the following solution-less issues:
They are all things that I can do nothing about so I try to ignore them. I know that bottling them up and putting them on the shelf in the back of the freezer is not a solution but it’s all I can do. I wish somebody would help me. I could really use a nice long hug right now.