Stop looking at me like that!!

I swear I’m not going to talk to anyone anymore.  I’m tired of getting that, “Are you an alien?” face from you.

The other day I stopped by a modular home lot to see what the houses looked like.  Before I could see anything I had to go through the sales spiel and answer a lot of questions. I can’t count the number of times I answered simple questions and got the alien face.

  1. Do you rent an apartment?  No.  I have a house.  Face.
  2. How much do you pay for your mortgage?  I paid it off 10 years ago. Face.
  3. Do you have any pets?  No.  I might get a dog.  Face.
  4. Do you live on the south side?  No.  I’m on the Northwest side.  Face.
  5. How long have you lived in San Antonio?  All my life.  Face.
  6. What is your income?  $54,000. Face.
  7. What kind of financing will you be needing?  None.  I’ll pay cash.  Face.
  8. Do you want a 3 or 4 bedroom house?  Just one bedroom please.  Face.

I was ready to slap the face right off this guy.

It’s not just him either.  I see it all the time from friends and family.  Is there anyone I can talk to who is normal?  You’re all insane and I hate you.

 

The thought may be better than the real thing

For the last 40 years I’ve been pining for a good friend but I wonder if it is nothing more than a fantasy.  Each time I’ve tried I am always disappointed.

Today I placed an ad on Craigslist laying out my interests and asking for someone similar.  I got a nice response from a girl who was very literate and interested in many of the things I like.  A strange thing happened as I was reading her response.  I thought, “She sounds like a perfect friend.” but then I thought, “but I don’t need her.”  WTF?

I scrolled down and saw some pictures she had included.  She is a very pretty girl but I realized that I’m not attracted to humans.  I’m more attracted to my fantasy than actual reality.  Does that make any sense?   There’s no getting around the fact that humans gross me out no matter how good they look.  That’s pretty messed up, right?  I don’t know.

(This is not coming out as profoundly as it sounded in my head.)

To break it down, I’m trying to say that I don’t really want another person around me and I wonder if this is true or just something I’m telling myself in attempt to make it make sense.  Still not what I’m trying to say.

I’m trying to say that my desire is false and I need to let it go and stop beating myself up.  I am hereby setting myself free.  I think.

 

Geocaching

Geocaching is something I’ve been curious about for many years.  An acquaintance emailed me last week and asked if I would like to give it a try.  I was GO for that.  Today she came and picked me up in her electric car and we went to visit some of the caches in my neighborhood.   We couldn’t find the first one.  Maybe this is harder than I thought.  After scouring the area and giving up we went on to the next one which we found easily.

For those of you who live under a rock, geocaching is where you go to locations marked on a map and try to find a small container hidden by other people.  Sometimes the container has trinkets in it of which you can take and replace with one of your own.  They almost all have a tiny scroll of paper where you can sign your name and the date on it.

We searched and found 5 or 6 of them.  A few containing trinkets but most were just logs.  Most were easy to find but a few were very difficult.  One was so tiny it looked not much larger than the cap on the air valve of a tire.  Inside was a very tiny scroll to sign.

Well.  It was interesting but not really captivating.  There’s room for improvement here somewhere.  Still it was a good way to spend a few hours of a Saturday with someone rather than sitting at home alone.

We were hungry afterwards so we had lunch at Chili’s where as usual she told me all about her life problems.  I listened because she needed someone to listen to her.  I’m good at that.  I’m here for you whether you’re there for me or not.

 

Invisibility cloak down today?

invsblI had a strange experience today.  I was sitting in my favorite Thai restaurant for lunch today.  There was a girl at the next booth eating her soup.  Our eyes met and I gave her my standard, “You can see me?” smile.  She smiled back.

I ordered and read my book while I waited for the food.  She asked the waitress for some of the sweet sauce that is usually at the table.  I noticed that mine was missing as well and grabbed some from another table.  She saw me do it and I said, “Mine is missing too.”.  She asked me what I was reading.  We exchanged pleasantries across the booths and she mentioned that it was difficult to talk this way insinuating that we should sit together. (Strangely forward of her.)  I asked her if she wanted to sit together and she grabbed her stuff and moved to my booth.

We talked for a while about ourselves.  She is married. (Even stranger)  I wish she wasn’t.  She is Asian (Vietnamese).  I love Asian people.   We talked as we ate.  I wish I had asked for chopsticks so she could see my amazing skills.  LOL.  At the end she gave me her business card with her number on it and told me to text her and we’ll go to lunch again.  I gave her mine.

She had a bunch of To-Go orders to take home to her family.  I was dazed and confused but glad I went along with it.  We talked about a Chinese restaurant I liked up the street.  I’ll text her in few weeks to see if she wants to try it.

Right now I don’t know what to think.  I am especially invisible to married women so I don’t know what is going on.  I would hate to end up as an affair or something that could mess up her family.  Maybe it is nothing and she is just being unusually friendly.  That’s me always looking for the ulterior motive when someone speaks to me.  It would be nice to have a new friend if nothing else. Let’s just chalk it up to a nice experience.

I made $1000 today doing nothing

mbagNow that’s the way it is supposed to be.

I’ve been toying with etrade for many years now and have been following a stock picker newsletter.  I’ve done little trades of $2000 and under to get a feel for it.  None of it really paid off because a small investment gets you small returns.

This time I decided to go big.   Following the latest pick from Topnasdaqstocks.com I invested $10,000 at $2.45.  I’ve watched the picks over the years and these guys have a great track record.  Over two days time the stock went up to 3.05 where I decided to sell.  That made me a little over $1100 in profit.  Pretty sweet, I must say.   Next time I’ll invest $20k.  I had planned to do that this time but only half sold at my limit price.  I figured that was good enough for the first time going big and cancelled the rest before it sold as well.  Had I bought the whole $20K worth then I would have made $2200.

Yes, it is risky but no risk, no return.  I think the risk of big loss is minimal because even if these stocks decline, they don’t decline in large jumps quickly over the short period of investment.  Say I lose a few hundred.  No big deal.  Make it back later plus more.

I feel pretty comfortable with this method.  It may even be a pump and dump scheme but if it works for me then pump me up!   Wouldn’t it be pretty sweet to make an extra 1-2K a month?

I’m learning a lot really quickly and it’s fun.  A little scary too. You get a bit of an adrenaline rush.  I expect that goes away eventually as it becomes normal. There’s nowhere else to put money anyway.  Regular bank investments like CD, Money Markets, Saving accounts get you 2% at best after a year.  Might as well keep it in your checking account.  I just made 10% in two days.

Sure this may be pie in the sky thinking but it’s not illogical to expect some kind of decent return.  What’s 20K sitting in your checking account anyway.  You only feel money when it moves.

If you have the means.  I highly recommend subscribing at Topnasdaqstocks.com.  These guys are good.

 

Out of Phase

All my life, I’ve felt out of phase with this planet.  Maybe not the planet itself but the humans that infest it.

I’m like a four dimensional being in a three dimensional world.  There’s something amazing right here but nobody can see it.  Thinking fourth-dimensionally is difficult so consider a three dimensional object in a two dimensional world.   If you could only see one face of a cube, you would see nothing but a square.  A blank face is all you can visualize while 99% of the object can never be seen.  That’s me.  The majority of me is beyond the comprehension of regular beings.  I can tell because whenever I try to share something awesome, they look at me like I’m something they’ve never seen before. You know that face they make? Like, “What?”

I’m a ghost.  If I try hard enough I can make myself visible, but without major effort, I walk the planet completely unseen.  Am I here or am I not?

Like a demon, people can summon me when they want something from me.  I’m not sure how they do it but I always seem to be there for them to work my magic and make it all better.  If they don’t need me then I cease to exist until called upon again.

What a wonderful existence.