I’m not sure what my boss has against me but he is making it very difficult to do my work lately. It was really starting to irk me and I was seriously considering looking for another job or just quitting and taking some time off.
I came to a good conclusion today as I was sitting alone in a restaurant eating lunch.
I will be semi-retiring in December anyway (So is the plan.) I need to have medical insurance.
There’s really no point struggling. Yes, it hurts my ego but what is that, really? This particular life is almost up for me so what do I care? I’m officially going to float it.
It’s going to be difficult making such a change because I’m not the kind of person to sit idle when there is work to be done but I think it is best. There’s no point in starting a new job just to quit in less than a year. It’s not off the table but that’s a lot of trouble for ego. I could just quit but until it’s time to build my new house, there’s nothing I really need the time for. Might as well make some extra money while things come together.
The plan is to be passive about it and let come what may. Do what he says and nothing more if I do not deem it to be necessary. That’s what a regular employee does anyway, right? Besides, no matter how hard you work here, your review is just satisfactory at best. Why bother with extra effort? Jesus himself couldn’t get an Exceeds Expectations. What makes me think I could? Why is it so hard to find a satisfying job? Humans. Once the machines take over, the world will be a much better place.
It’s February now so I only need to float for 11 months. We get our bonuses in December so after that, it’s sayonara anyway. Post it note on my monitor, “Float!”
A few hours later…
I’m having alternative thoughts about a new job. I spent 10 years or more of my previous job feeling unsatisfied. I promised myself I would not do that again. Even if time is short, why spend it poorly. I did some searching on indeed.com and found a part time job that might be a nicer fit. I’m tired of working full time anyway. Sure I would make less money but I have money. I need happiness. I might just apply and see what happens. My only concern is health insurance. Most part time jobs don’t offer Health Care but I looked at the costs of buying it myself. It would be around $500-700 a month. Not too bad. I’m going to work on my resume and think about it for a bit. It’s good to keep your options open.
I have a feeling the boss is going to give me a bad review which would be totally wrong. That might be my cue to leave. We’ll see. Maybe I should leave before my review.
The next day…
I decided to take the adult path. I was really shaken up last night when I got home. I couldn’t eat or even watch TV. I went out into the hot tub for a thinking session and reasoned it all out and whittled it down to the truth. I felt much better and was able to sleep.
Today I went to my boss and asked him if we could talk in the conference room for a few minutes. I broke the ice and he seemed relieved to have the discussion. As I suspected we were both frustrated with the work environment we have to deal with. We both did and said things that we shouldn’t have. I was originally going to tell him about my frustrations but he needed to unload his so I mostly listened. He is under a lot of pressure from his superiors as well. I can tell he understood where I was coming from without having to go into detail. It was a good chat.
In the end we both felt much better and have a renewed relationship. I’m glad I did it today so I can relax better this weekend. Sometimes getting issues out in the open can do wonders.