It has been a while since I’ve written in my blog. I don’t know. It seems a little pointless lately. What is the purpose of doing anything? To reach out. Well, I’m tired of reaching out just to find that there’s nothing out there.
I was going to write an entry about Meghan Markle and how she is an ungrateful, uncompromising, Ugly American, bridezilla bitch. But then I realized I don’t actually give a shit about her.
The weather was nice yesterday so I jumped in the car and went on a road trip to Pedernales Falls state park here in Texas. It’s only around 100 miles away but still felt like an eternity. I swear I expected to cross the Canadian border any minute. The park was a little more crowded than I like but then I remembered that it was Spring Break. I took my usual hike up to the end of the river where the crowd quickly thinned out. It can be a rough hike for regular people but was a Walk in the Park for me. LOL. Pun intended.
As usual, nobody even noticed me. I was invisible again. Near the park boundary, I ran across a guy also there by himself. I expected we might exchange a greeting or something but he ignored me completely as we passed. There were a few families there with kids. The kids could see me but the adults could not. That’s always the way it works. I wonder why. One day I hope to understand this phenomenon. An old man and his wife said Hi to me on the way out. That’s something.
But that’s OK. Back home I’m enjoying my solitude and beginning to revel in it. It has become something special that I alone possess. It makes me feel special. It’s kind of like living on my own private island. It is still going to take some time but I’m slowly privatizing my 3.4 acres to shield my ugliness from prying eyes. This year I’m planting large quantities of shrubberies around the perimeter. They are fast-growing and drought-tolerant but we’re still talking years before I’ll enjoy my walled garden in peace. Soon the existing barrier growth will start to leaf-out and I can feel a little less exposed. The freak winter storm Texas had a few weeks ago set the spring growth back a bit. I’m so looking forward to seeing things start growing again. I’m looking forward to being naked in the sun again.
My community band has begun rehearsals outside to protect from the pandemic. It’s kind of fun to be back again and do something constructive with others even though I don’t know who they are. It’s my first year with this band after having moved out of the city. I hope to be more approachable this year. It’s not easy for me to change my ways of forced solitude.
My mom has been well enough to stay with my sister on alternating weeks so I get every other week to myself to do as I please. I like having her stay with me for company but I do appreciate my alone time.
Time is still flying by. I thought it would slow down when I retired but the speed of time seems to be immutable. It is accelerating exponentially no matter what. I’m doing my best to maintain my health so I can enjoy it before it goes so fast that the universe explodes. Having a couple of stents put in my coronary arteries has extended my life beyond my expected time. I am doing very well and can gauge my heart health by my walking and running stamina. My recent hike at the park over the rocks, up the stairs, and up the hill without even losing my breath proved that my regiment of eating well and exercising has me in excellent health. I try to walk 1-2 miles daily when the weather is nice enough. Maybe I’ll make it to my desired goal of 80. After that, I have the option for a quick exit.
Today I did a few great things. I leveled out my driveway with my tractor. I did my taxes and expect to receive a $2600 refund thanks to the Healthcare Tax Credit. I laid on the couch and read. I masturbated. I watched some good TV. I doesn’t get much better than that.
Tomorrow I have nothing scheduled so I’ll do as I please again. Who knows what awesome things I will accomplish. Saturday I promised an acquaintance that I would help him work on his deck project and then Sunday I pick up my mom and go to band practice.
I’m enjoying watching the stock market recover from the pandemic. Every 1 percent increase makes me $1100 in my Wealthfront account. We still have a long way to go as the pandemic subsides and the market returns to normal. Bitcoin and Litecoin are also heading upward. My Litecoin investment has already doubled since I bought it.
Well. That about covers it I think. I feel pretty good and that’s all that matters. Life may not be great but it is definitely good enough for me. I hope it is working out for you too.